To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering, one must not love. But then, one suffers from not loving. Therefore, to love is to suffer; not to love is to suffer; to suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy, then, is to suffer, but suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be happy, one must love or love to suffer or suffer from too much happiness.
Living a life of a broken hearted cannibal
I feel so different, evil and vicious which leads to many doubts running in circle around my fragile mind. Ever since that particular raining day you left me alone in a very dark lonely alley, I looked myself at the reflection through the rainwater. How stupid am I? Why I trust love so much for a happiness? It does shows how weak and foolish am I , sacrificing all my tears and sweats for a doll that I wish I could live with , like forever. But in the end, I was the one who are trapped in sorrow , and starting to turn into a freaky cannibal. I ate everyone’s trust and frienship and yet I dont mind about that. I hate myself. I know, you break my heart and sometimes, I hate you and I cant erase you of my mind because I know someday I will be there for you. I dont want to love you in any kind of way and yes, I dont want to play that part. The broken hearted cannibal. I just love you soo much.
Time.
Why did you have to go ?
Why you had to leave me all alone?
Why I cried because of you ?
Can you remember the time we spent together?
What is time?
Is it the memories we had together?
Or is it pain that I had?
You are so beautiful. You live, you learn, you love with time and everytime I saw you , I grow. Like a beautiful sunflower under the shiny sun. I sat down and laid my head on your strong shoulders. I smiled. We hold hands and we grow old together. Can we be like this forever? can we ? I dont want to leave you. As time told me that. Lets hope around in the garden full with flowers. Shall we?
Is this a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare?
It was exactly I thought it was going to be. I thought I could sleep longer and embrace this beautiful moments that I am in. However, I started to realise, is this a sweet dream or a just a beautiful nightmare ? because one thing I noticed, is you. You were there, making everything seems so perfect even a slightest second of my dream, you made me like a prince on top of the picturesque castle. You hold my hands, and I could feel a warm presence flowing through my blood veins. I closed my eyes, imagining us to be together and forever. You laid your head on my shoulder and wrapped my body with your hands and sweet heaven, only god knows how I felt on that moment. You are imperfectly perfection that I could not forget, a perfection that every perfectionist ever dream of. You are those shining stars and how I wish , I could wish upon those stars, to get you into my life. but……………
I woke up, it is 8 am in the morning. Is this a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare?
Is it better to be heartless robot rather than emotional human? Because, everyone keep on saying to move on when problems are there.
We may cry for days, We may feel like giving up life , We may just want to feel like running away from all this. But there is one thing that keep us who we are right now, the pain that we feel. We grow from there. So, hold on. At least, a lil longer.
I cant believe the person I love is the person that I could hate the most. I used that pain, to make grow stronger than ever.
